friday against NJC.

full game. learnt a lot of stuff. 34-36. i mispassed thrice in the 1st quarter. and a few more times in the whole game. no confidence to do long pass except last quarter when jac n glan was ard. not fit enough cos if i was super fit i could have ran faster and be half a second ahead of WA, nt nxt to her, and gotten closer to that 10 interceptions!! sorry to those who really wanted to hear fana's secret including myself. oops. guilty. haha.

seriously i hope i'll get fitter by start of season. and improve on my passes. regain my confidence. hug the D and protect MY space for throw-in. go for the 2ndpass lob-balls towards the D. even tho thats like FAST! i wana GET THAT BALL! roar.

surprising how a game can make me stronger. really felt like crying at one pt in time in the game.. cos i just felt so dunno what to do. so not confident to throw/run. so many turnovers we didn't bring down, and it was so the defenders' fault. felt like i let down the team because every member's pass and run matters.

this friendly was so useful cos i really learnt a lot a lot. all my weaknesses were exposed!! especially what goes on in my head. guilty, ashamed, irritated at my own weaknesses. but yet refueled cos i hv new stuff to work on. i must overcome the stupid "demons of the past". and be a strong player.

i really want to overcome. the 2 years i wasted at AHnetball blind to these things. i shall not push the blame to anyone except myself. no more mediocrity. only excellence. help me Lord, no mediocrity anymore. out of my comfort zone. let me change into the person u want me to be.. i know you can even use a sport to mould me. let me not lose steam!

God is good, He's so wise, He can use all circumstances to mean good for us. haha. praise God! =)

hope everybody felt that it was a gd learning experience too. VJ netball all the way! let's train hard every opportunity we have! (: