seems like i haven't blogged in a long time?

many things happened in a short span of 2 weeks.

highlights were:
i lost my handphone and wallet at the same time so please give me your number again :) & contribute to the Denise Fund. so i can replace my ezlink, atm, ETCETC
the end of season.
house results.
im finally attending GAP again.
video conference at GIC where i met some great people. :)
spidey3.
akuou retreat.

haha yupps. haven't shared much about how i feel about ending at 1st round. i guess disappointment was a big feature; i don't like not achieving my goals very much. well even if i miss the mark, i would like to know i was this close to achieving it.

but nevertheless i'm really thankful for you people. VJNB07 :) even though we didn't get to play together in A div for very long, we trained tgt a lot.. and i really enjoyed all our trainings. :) we all know how hard we fought and all the effort we put in, (sunburnt shoulders, achy ankles/knees, suicides, long runs, etc..) and we know how much we love the game and the team. its okay if the world doesn't recognise us because we didn't bring the silverware home. as long as you all know you've pushed your own boundaries, gave more than you cared to give, you know you're all winners inside. because we've all battled our inner demons at one point or another and i know all you girls are overcomers in one way or another. be it your physical/mental barriers. :) its so sad to say goodbye and to close this chapter.. i will really miss training with you girls so much. & miss having a common goal. i love YOU ALL! sigh. only Abba will know how i feel inside.

yepps i guess i learnt what it means to surrender your dreams to God. and how it feels like to have your dream taken away from you. retreat was a great time, the lessons and everything. i know i'm coming back, He's drawing me nearer. thankful for His faithfulness and grace. i'm beginning to truly appreciate the balance between surrendering your ambitions/dreams yet still, having an aim to work towards. a goal. a plan. how i can involve God. how to say i want to work and earn lots of $ for my family but yet i know if God wants me to go somewhere else i'll have to readily drop this dream. i relearnt how all of my days are crafted into His perfect plan. no strife. just a quiet confidence as i work toward excelling.

the peace that comes when i know. all of my days are held in His hands! no matter what choices i make, what uni i go, what course i take, what career i go to, in the end i'll be where He wants me to go, and it will be the PERFECT plan. and i really mean PERFECT, like no what-ifs, no "thats better", i shd have gone for that instead, yadayada. yay. haha.

big lessons on faith too. with same advice from jinwei and darren. yupp even though i still have questions, i will believe and trust in all that You are.

i will be driven and motivated for You. because of You. :)

oh and i almost forgot to mention, i met some really great people from the video-conference. its cool to find like-minded people :) i know this sounds abit weird. but like, i can be serious and talk about things in detail and depth and people won't switch off. they even respond and engage. thank GOD for blessing me with chances to meet new people! as well as getting to talk to a few of my other friends at this level. esp my brother and his gf :) i don't feel weird and like i'm the only one thinking too much, or like i'm too concerned about my future. lol. yay.

ok im gonna toddle off. goodnight :)