i've decided that i want to start penning down all my ideas in coherent paragraphs here.. not merely allowing them to float around in my consciousness. by ideas i mean like. theories, thoughts. insights... opinions, observations... not just simple daily events or happenings. heavier stuff not just for entertainment.

why? cos i don't want to let the label of "science student" or "future business graduate" cripple myself. allowing myself to think that i won't be able to write as well as any journalist or GP teacher, just because i'm not formally trained in that area or am not engaged in that career. i will not make myself fit into boxes! or consciously embrace labels! haha. see, a result of lectures at SOT. it seriously screws with your mind (but i guess, ultimately for the better).

and also cos i've always thought that no one would want to read about my muses. the "cheem things". the wordy affairs. "readership" will decline, people would just skim through my posts and then think that they're wasting their time on my blog. haha. but i realised, why should i be adjusting my content to suit people? its what i want to write, what i want to express, and this blog will function according to how i purposed it. it'll be a challenge to myself not to care about what other people say - "think she's trying too hard, using all those fancy words and talking about idealistic things." at least i know i've tried, though i may flop terribly, make grammatical errors, use some words inappropriately.. i'll know i was willing to stretch myself and accomplish far more than i would have if i stayed in my comfort zone. and practise articulating my points clearly.. not just having them fuzzy and unrefined in my mind.

i thought of a million other reasons, but i can't remember now because im carrying out a discussion with samuel and farrell (eh maybe only farrell. sams not responding) on msn. hahaha. I WANNA LEARN HOW TO MULTITASK! boo.

anw, i'm really sorry for not blogging about my bday celebrations yet. its just that there's so much to write, i don't dare to start becos i'm afraid im gonna take the whole night, and thus feel guilty for blogging cos i hv an exam on monday. so i guess i'll blog about it after GP, i'll probably do so with more ease. but i must mention i'm ultra BLESSED and GRATEFUL for all my wonderful friends who cared and who made efforts to make it a special day for me :) thanks for the love yo. and not forgetting, thank You God for showing me the capacity, that love Man can give - and reminding me, how much more greater is Your love to me? :)