haha im so incredibly tired.
and blank
don't cry cos of pms!
cos its not worth my tears
cos nothing's worth bitterness, unforgiveness, self-pity, pride
[and big girls don't whine]

only Jesus deserves anything.
and i really mean anything.
my devotion, my commitment, my heart, my life, my past, present, future. only Jesus deserves it. only He has proven trustworthy for me to share it with. and well really, only He is worthy of all my life all my praise all the glory.

and when the world goes crazy, when people disappoint you and hurt you, when exams and practicals look foreign, when your dreams crash, when the future looks bleak, when pple change, circumstances change.. and you don't know why, Jesus is there, never-changing. ever-loving, ever-seeing and understanding..

so He's my solid rock on which i stand. my tower, my refuge, my shelter against the storms. the lover of my soul and again i don't know why..

Hebrews 11:1 "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."

now, it comes to living it out. where every minute of the day everything belongs to You. i no longer live but Christ lives in me. my desires fade and Yours reign. Your passion for my passion. love like You love.

help me Lord give me strength to live a life of sheer obedience..

haha what a beautiful birthday i had! had 5 cakes in total. ate at swensens yum! and what a happening evening/night haha..

thank You Lord for such wonderful friends and wonderful blessings. i can't begin to finish counting my blessings cos they're so abundant. You're abundant. =)

You know the depths of my heart and You love me the same.. You are amazing God.

hmm.. don't know if wad happend was according to Your will or not.. but thank You for allowing that anw? cos anw its jus a matter of time rite? actually i think this way its better, somehow i can concentrate more now.. haha. but Lord i'm determined not to break my promise. but i know i cannot succeed, so pls grant me Your strength n grace. Your grace is sufficient for me! amen! =)

hopefully its better for him too.. pls grant tt he'll focus and concentrate on what's at hand.. exams and tests.. tt he'll grow to love you more each day, to reflect ur glory a little bit more everyday.. fix his eyes on You, and grasp how highdeeplongwide the love of Christ really is, and be filled to the full measure of God. =)

i love You Jesus, and nothing can ever take away Your love from me. thank You for that Lord. =) thank You for just being You. thank You for unmerited favour. being in circumstances i know i dont deserve. hallelujah! =)

as You bless me, help me be a blessing unto others ALWAYS, in everything and everyway i can be!

"everytime i count my blessings, i count you twice."

Be Thou my vision, O Lord of my heart
Naught be all else to me, save that Thou art
Thou my best thought by day or by night
Waking or sleeping Thy presence my light

amen.

mm.. a few more hours to sweet 16!

but im already having diabetes cos friday was so so sweet, (the violin!) and so was tonight's dinner!

and i'm really looking forward to tmr! haha.. lunch! and although have to study for amaths, but its okaee. =)

thank You Jesus for sweet friends, sweet memories.. *grins!

may the words of our mouths and the meditations of our hearts be pleasing to You... not what i want but You.

GAP this fri was great. or rather God was so great. cos He's the life of the meeting.. learnt tt its not what i think. sometimes nd to let go of my thoughts. faith is more than that. i hv to stop allowing my mind be an obstacle.

and i believe as we decide to live radically.. extraordinarily.. we'll become extraordinary people of God. are we willing to really make radical decisions? of saying no to what culture, and even some churching peeps, say is okay.

don't go with the flow, don't go with what people say is okay. go with what God tells your heart. if He says no, then don't settle for anything less.

don't settle for anything less.

haha im beginning to think that having a blog isn't a very gd thing..

cos you know you want to say sth but you can't say too much because you don't want the whole world to know everything thats going on in your head.

but anyway its gonna be busy tomorrow! there's chem test 1st period then o level EL oral after sch. den maybe we're gonna sakae! the cookie gang lolx wad a move. =D den finish up HCL tuition hw, finish up NYG emath paper. do some emath tys.

then sat i'll do the NYG amath paper. some amath tys. den start on geog. go for tuition, come back do more geog. muz finish agriculture by sat!

sunday finish up AHS amath mye paper. then geog! what topic shd i do?

hmm yay i've successfully planned out the rest of my week. haha i'm happy and contented now! hooray. *grin.

its good to have the feeling of.. unclutteredness? when you're not distracted. i think i'm just gonna heck care abt you already. yah. and not gonna spend to much time on you too.

let's throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and run with perseverance the race marked out for us.. let's fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross....

maybe i shd just stay within my social circle.. perhaps it'll cut down on all the whisperings and whatnots that's making nobody happy. so much for all the "hope we'll all be great frens." okaee.. let's not get bitter here.

oh well it's okae. i know who loves me and treasures me for who i am. true friends. love you all! lets sakae mann. hahahaha. =)

if pple say "talk abt how you feel", you explain how it really is like, and they don't believe you.

then whats the point of talking in the first place?

it's been a very, very crappy week. and its only tuesday night.

sometimes you're sick of everything including yourself.

i'm so in this complaining and whiny mood.

i just want to give up on everything...

i hate it when things make my rship with God end up in tatters. its unnecessary. useless.

get my priorities right. okayy.

scream.

love is not a feeling its an act of will; don't say that your feelings equate to love.

... im tired. and im running away from the only one who will ever understand me.