ok i'm exhausted. gpp is finally over. can't say i really put in my 100% and i feel wrong for not giving something my best shot. but aghh.. its late! and AGH excuses excuses.. but i've sent the file over for printing already soo.. just pray and hope for the best.. arghh. sorry Lord!

ok so many things have happened since i last blogged. God is good, He gives me purpose and hope, so no matter what happened life is just still so wonderful. =) thank God for love and strength to tide me through. for grace to pick me up when i fall down..

oh, hols has started. with a bang i must sayy. last week of term was so crazy-busy, i slept less than 6hrs every night. but not cos i was studying. (?!) friday was wonderful, after hse comm stuff met up with AHsc. great seeing jnrs.. new comm heads.. still calling me boss like wow.. so honoured.. dont deserve it man. i think their batch did so much more. anw, all the talking and laughing and bridging and learning dance tgt.. and 85!! yeah man. i totally miss the warmfuzzy feeling we had on that friday night when we all talked non-stop abt jc life.. catch up w each other.. gorge our silly faces.. *violet ma'am eats a lot. heh hope our nxt meeting will b just as exciting and "warmfuzzy"!

slept a lot on sat.. replenish the lost hours. then met chris at airport at 11pm. whirlwind of events started. stayd over and sent off sarah.. whos going to boston to study! hopefully we'll kp our promise and snailmail each other.. heh. went home to sleep for an hour.. YM.. got to hang with keith and kenneth for awhile.. lunch, spent talking abt the DISC thing.. i still dont know what i am cos everybody has differing opinions. but its okay i think it matters more to me that i figure out what are the others' profiles. :)

then very quick shopping! arcade, movie.. x-men3 was not bad really =D good stuff. jeangrey is so beautiful. then i finally bought my earrings! oh yeah, then jason's low C was put on display.. the big hoo-ha over the Lost Tickets. his flusteredness even made me a little unsettled! ohmy. but i shall make an effort not to make tht sound like a bad point. then we went for dinner and proceeded for nj choir concert!

to summarise, i loved hambo. so cute!! autumn leaves was so sad until some sop went a little offkey and brought me back to earth. and a certain guy's voice from bass became so distinct the harmony was lost. but the feeling was there. and it stayed for awhile. i think thats what make a good choir right? from what shallow understanding of music that i have..

oh yeah and gladwin snored once and he heard himself snore. ohmy horrendous but funny. haha. oh and not to mention captain lionel and his interest in ms teo, hg and jl 's interesting lit tcher.. hahaha hilarious!

then went for supper at newton's circus! i dunno what got over me. and maybe jason. we laughed like mad kids down with rabies? *shudder. so out of control. hahaha but it was a SUPER good feeling. to laugh it all out. sigh, hanging out with "old" people is making me too serious. i need to treasure my youth! act bimbotic, make silly mistakes and comments, let my hair down hv some fun. (: and i think hg is really supremely introverted, and i think his "weirdness" is cool! in a way, he reminds me of someone else..

hope we'll all get to know one another better. past the superficial laughing and joking. see one another's worlds. (:

godpa fetchd me back, thanks!! went to jean's hse on e way. SO NICE. the house. and my amah is nice too! love you amah!! hahaha. not like she reads this anw. oh well.

and so my crazy weekend is abt to come to an end.. hopefully i'll get down to studying.

oh God may You grant me studying kakis.. and discipline.. and help me to love You. (:

i miss
spending time with the netball team.
the stupendously long competition warm-up we'll all do together.
the time we spend slacking together before trg starts/after trg ends. at the slum!
the long runs.
the suicides.
netball camp.
talking in our sleeping bags on last night of camp.
doing those constipating gym stuff.
the bday celebrations.
the GOSSIP sessions.
the scandals.
the laughing sessions.
the names.
that time at ben and jerry's.
the dinners at mac/kfc/various places in suntec city. haha
the filipino maid outings.

i really miss vjnetball06. so much! you guys really are a part of me. life will be so sad without the J2s.

i'll miss
fana and her stern face. and her crazy laughter (or shrieks?!)
glan and her encouragement, and reassuring presence on court
stacy and her "wah lau get the rebound!" "c'mon!" and her gossip and her accuracy!
jac and her hand actions for emphasis, her auntie ways and the way she speaks!
mel and her tears (!), her flying up arms, her phenomenal speed, and her pictaking frenzy!
smint and how she's a WONDERFUL manager. so caring and meticulous. <3!
bern and her "RESPECT MEs", and her soft funniness
siewming and her so very nice brother, and her super long limbs!
emily and her bimbo moments n comments (oops!) and her turtle action!

i love love love netballers. so much so much!!

i really feel so much for the team. never even felt it so intensely for other stuff. and all this happened in just like, 4months? talk about a trip down memory lane.

VJNETBALL`06 ROX

i hope you had the time of your life

ok its been a whole week since i blogged and i think stuff keeps happening at the speed of lightning, i never ever have the time to take note of stuff. to digest the savour the process. before i know it jc life will zoom past and my memories might just be a blur of emotions and snapshots of scenes.

THUS, i will do those kinda super long blogpost.. i dont wanna forget a div 06 netball q-finals that quickly!!!

altho i'll probably spend some time another day blogging abt our team again.. hahahaa. i so love vjnetball06. seriously. in a way, they are the reason why i go to school, what keeps me going thruout lessons (match later! training!), and really.. just such a big part of my life. take netball away and my jc life would mean nothing.

okay! enough of the heartrending parts.. lets go chronologically.. HAA.

5th may, fri
release of housecomm results.. i was telling myself i wont cry. afterall, i have a match after that. but ended up crying first and like so much. i dunno why i was so emo man. think its like the unfairness of the situation.. totally sucky. how its like a popularity contest. sian. oh wells. after tt went to parkway to eat lunch. cabbed down to kallang w emily. we played acjc, our 1st match of the quarterfinals. super lousy play from me. cant believe the crap that went thru my head.. it was like i want it to end man. i learnt that 1. my elevation nt gd enough for that left-flank centre pass 2. my reach not far enough for the right-flank 3.freaking not enough stamina 4. freaking weak mentally! sigh. the whole team was just so down larh. think we not focused enough and we sort of gave up before starting. the downs we went through together...

oh the funny parts were that nigel and sha came down. haaaaaha. mr chow too how nice. but yeh we were like vj-SHA! so obvious liao lor. haha. then nigel stacy brian emily were on double date at macs!! me and sam were like umm... takeaway our food lah. hahaha. funfun. went for GAP after tt =)

6th may, sat
morning had PW meeting at changi airport. i think i can memorise the tune to "how to get to sesame street", "fan-tastic", and the ooorchard road ad. so irritating.. um yah, then went for training at kallang. think everyone felt better after the many downthelines. =) um nth much happened loh.. i managed to lodge the netball on the top of the pole. and it stayed there. wow. then there was this grp of "strangers" playing netball at court 3. then fana and stacy was playing too. so i joined in and BEHOLD! it was xavier! what a place to meet my ex-clsmate.. in the NETBALL CENTRE on a public holiday. woohoo. hahah. yeah then the guy playing C was funny, he went I'M HERE I'M HERE! many times. haha.

ok fast forward this is taking TOO LONG! erm we went to town!! riana geri burger me and BERN! then cos she's the only J2 so she's like, "RESPECT ME" hahaha. many funny things but sheesh i cant rmb what happened..aghhh. short term memory. we went paragon and we saw allan wu. aiya, for more details refer to riana's blog! haha. then went to meet godpa abby lionel chris. went abby's hse they watchd tv while i used the com hee =p then go home.. slept ard 2+ x_x

7th may, sunday
had XT meeting. quite glad a lot of things were more or less outlined already. im i/c of publicity with keith! haha. hope everythg will go well. nth much happened actually. finally got to see haoguang after 12467297days. met this new guy called roger. interesting encounter eh?

8th may, monday
shdn't even have come to school! only lessons were two periods of chem lecture in the morning. plus i hardly listened and spent most of the time thinking abt hse comm and talking to cheryl. then i had no chem SPA, so went to eat breakfast with classmates. time passed by v quickly and i went to join the netballers! yay! so fun. as usual we talked a lot and laughed and whatnot. had a very gooood sleep at slum. the new mat is good. =) oh then when we were walking to our bus, we saw RJC tennis team! haha when we saw the first few guys riana was like OMG! cute guys! then after that....... haha. guess what. i saw bensen. haha so i was like HI! then he got teased by his teammates after that. oops. haha. so yah we played RJC on monday. could have fought better but oh well.. its over. learn from our mistakes. next year we must be more mentally prepared. we need to really talk it out before that.. make sure every mind is made up to only WIN. every heart's on fire to get every pass. yeah man. its quite a waste, actually i think we really had a chance to beat RJC.. somehow somewhere we lost steam, i guess rj is stronger mentally yah.

after that went back to school to ice. then while going home i saw ahem*joel!! haha. cant really see him except spot his eyebrow. oops.

9th may, tuesday
it was a boring day because i had no netball to look forward to plus i end at like 5pm. ugh. went to library to do work for the 3period break. pw was productive. bryan made another funny comment i forgot what oops. hilarious. then went for cecelia's bible class. met auntie florence who gave me a lift home! woo thank God! haha. then spent the night like visualising the game and prepping myself mentally. finding quotes. haha.

i shall blog about wednesday another day. yawn. nights!

hmm. interestingly, life seems tough to most of my jc friends nowadays. although i think so too, i think i will try not to complain. i love jc life, all the ups and the downs. cos i'm learning new things and growing through all these processes.

i guess when the world becomes gloomy and "life is hard", God is really the one to give me hope.. strength.. smiles.. that something to look forward to. at the end of the day, when i'm by myself in the solitude of my room or on the bus home.. the only thing (or person, in this case) that lifts my head up and puts that spark back into my eyes is God.

so thank You again for being here in my life. thanks for saving me and being my Dad!

so dear friends! when the going gets tough you know God is around.

Matthew 11:28

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.

Isaiah 40:28-31

"Do you not know? Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak.

Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint."

i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me