ok prelims are sort of officially settled cos results came back already.. jem smsed me my results.. interesting how i got 21st (must b God behind it!) theres 821am/pm, 2108, and (21).. haha.

yup must get down to mugging again everybody jiayou! if we didnt do well this time ard, take it as a lesson learnt, dun b like me and get demoralised and den do so poorly for my elit during prelims.. ha. dun let it get to you! yea man.

cannot play and play already. must plan out a timetable! haha!

abt 6more weeks! (18Nov) then limiting factor will b removed haha. then things will b interesting! looking forward to Olevels ending! yeah!

tk care God bless all!

pride..

sucks.

people know, but ultimately God knows the innermost parts.. and against You only have i sinned.

sorry Lord.. tho my sins are like scarlet, cleanse me & i shall b whiter than the snow...

there are many things which i do for recognition, for achievement. sometimes, unknowingly, sneakily, i let my worth be built on my achievements.

nope. my worth is to be built on Jesus Christ Himself. 6points doesnt make any sense without Jesus Christ as the focus. getting back of results made me think again.

sometimes its so tempting, i get sucked into thinking how sweet worldly success will be. how i want to be driven for career and success. how attractive the lure. pple will see you in a different light because of ur car, ur career, ur credentials. u'll appear a cut above the rest. and isnt tt wad my life is like? all my life i strive to be a cut above the rest. to b successful.

but i was gently reminded, to examine my motives.. its fine to strive to be a cut above the rest, but only when it comes to pursuits for the kingdom of God. i shd put all my energies into running the race for His kingdom. and i guess i got distracted by the worldly stuff ard. the glitter of it all. nooo i shd not get distracted. i shd not even think of that. i shd not let anything replace my first love. LORD help me! forgive me for my pride. forgive me not obeying.

sigh. ultimately its the pride. for the glory of myself. PAH! i wanna live a life which brings NONE of the glory to myself but ALL of the glory to Him. tt i'll take on His attitude, in humility consider others better than myself. what matters is the action i take. the choice i make. not the things i say.

i disgust myself sometimes.

yayy the past few days were fantastic! cos prelims were over. and i was stress/pressure free. wonderful! and obviously the amount of food i ate also went down drastically. hahaha.

anyways, i really really had fun i thinkk. exams ended on wednesday afternoon. thruout the break i managed to hv lunch myself undisturbed (simply goood).. finish stairway to heaven, finnaalllyyy quell my yoshinoya cravings. then got a magazine i wanted (yess!!) and the series of chronicles of narnia (YESS!). then i ate lunch with mummy (how heartwarming!).

then on sat met chia and ginny!! went for mini-golf at sentosa. simply splendid spending time with old friends!! and it was v fun too haha, all e interesting obstacles.. labyrinth, kidney, UNDERGROUND (esp. for carrots). ha! got all burnt. ran to the car frm the far end of the carpark. great end to the sentosa outing! then sent godpa and kelly off to israel! they're going off for like 2 weeks so sad =( definitely will miss em.

haha okayy maybe it doesnt sound very eventful but im qt happy cos i finally did a lot of things i wanted to do. anyway i've completed chronicles of narnia and its AWESOME! weee! yup. and sunday theres gonna be a class BBQ! yay! thank God for wonderful times like this when one jus feels sooo contented and feels like grinning from ear to ear. ha!

thks chia and ginny for sat very funn! =)

but soon the pressure will start again as we go back to mug for O's. nvm. bring it on man! my problem is not big, cos i got an ENORMOUS GOD! no problem is too big for him ;)

yeah man. yeah man! fix my eyes on Him not my puffy(poofy) little problems. ha!

anyway, was reading pples blogs.. like josephine zhuting they all. quite sad to see whatever's happening also cos afterall we're all part of one big family and all under the same God n Father.. mayb its God refining them. to make them realise, the motivation for their spiritual growth shd be Jesus Christ Himself (who is unchangeable) and nt anybody else, so their faith will be firm no matter their circumstances, no matter that nobody cares abt seeking God anymore, like what Isaiah n Jeremiah was.

and to make them realise that the gr8 character they hv built up over the years is nothing to cling on to. the strength they think they have. but to learn the precious lesson of being truly broken before the Lord saying "wretched man that i am!" the weaknesses i have! the wrongs i've did! the way i've tried to cover up for my badness. to explain it all away. but i guess it takes courage for one to look into the soul like that and own up for all these. to CONFESS. to repent.

but Lord so what if i know all these? they don't know, and although i'm longing n tearing to see them know the truth, im not in a position to tell them all this. who am i? what do i know about their lives? what does my opinion matter?

so logically the only ting left to do is pray. that God You will send relevant people to reveal the truth to them. the truths found in Your Word. tht their faith will indeed b built on all tht You are. that Your grace b with them. tht You'll never ever let anything snatch them out of Your hand.

and i say to whoever's reading this.. will you be willing to stand in the gap for these ppl in need? not only those mentioned here but those u see ard you. wht they need is not merely what we can give. not our words of "heyy be happy" and the pats on the back. true it helps (it really does) but what really will make a difference, is the help God gives. cos only His power is sufficient. and prayer is the slender nerve which moves the muscle of God's arm remember? and that God does nothing except in answer to prayer!

so when God shows us pple in need, let's kp jiayou-ing and praying for them! sow in tears and reap in joy :)

Stability results were moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic. (60%)
Orderliness results were high which suggests you are overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense too often of flexibility, efficiency, spontaneity, and fun. (70%)
Extraversion results were medium which suggests you average somewhere in between being assertive and social and being withdrawn and solitary. (53%)
trait snapshot:
clean, organized, regular, self reliant, tough, positive, high self control, very good at saving money, dislikes chaos, resolute, realist, trusting, hard working, dislikes unpredictability, prefers a technical specialized career, not worrying, respects authority, enjoys leadership, finisher, normal, optimistic, controlling, prudent, modest, adventurous, does not like to be alone, intellectual, likes the unknown, very practical, high self esteem, assertive, perfectionist, busy, altruistic.

http://similarminds.com

and i'm an ISTJ! introversion (50/50 betw intro and extro), sensing (compared to intuition), thinking (compared to feeling), judging (compared to perceiving)
http://www.knowyourtype.com/istj.html

haha had a fun time doing quizzes today.. good stress relief? haha i hv a pathetic life man. but tink still qt accurate bah. do you think so? heh.

nvm there's coffee tonight!! =D

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go,
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow?
Who imagined the sun and gave source to its light,
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night?
None can fathom..

beautiful song

but even more beautiful is the Creator =)

we fall down on our knees.. and bow to all that You are!

awesome God. amazing. sweet. beautiful. lovely. perfection. its at times like these tt i wish i had a better grasp of vocabulary. cos i tink words cant describe properly/sufficiently!!

praise praise praise

a life of worship =)

whisper; as You wish

i want to go back to how it used to be!!

when there was this complete trust in God. this child-like faith. this conviction that He will provide for my every need, that He is all that i could ever want. when He's my everything..

when my mind wasn't the obstacle, when i didn't keep asking why and just kept trusting, when He was still my first love!

bring me back Lord. forgive me for straying.

i need You here, i need You here