haha i know i should be studying, but i told myself i'll come online to relax for abt half an hour soo.. yah. will do some bedtime reading of my mye papers later on. =) but sadly nobodys online to talk to now! baaa.

nowadays i'm a little prone to moods. earlier on in the evening i was having one of those reflective melancholic moods again. but now i feel like relaxing and laughing and talking. haha. oh wells.

today i learnt about loving. again? haha. yepp! God hears and answers my request! i learnt how to accept pple's offer of help/company/care+concern. i learnt to receive love frm friends too. i mean in a sense, we can't just give and don't take.. and i'm so thankful tt Father blessed me with friends who are willing to spend time with me esp. when i need them most. =)

haha.. and you know how people always think i'm independent.. and how i myself think so too! well Abba's changing that.. my perception.. yepp, tho i feel so weeeeirrrdd admitting it, i need people to lean on as well.. (i cant believe that came outta my mouth!) haa. i havent said that in ages. it just hit me tonight. it took so much loving from those around me to make me realise that. to make me rediscover how wonderful it is to lean on my friends and carry burdens together!

yepp... i guess this week has been a week of "awakening"? haha.. the dreams and all.. the sudden realisations etc.. haha. God is good and faithful! (:

i spotted some parallels betw [xav mw jem d] and [jl hg wl d]

4 people,
spending intensive time together
getting really close very quickly.
june period. exams.
laughter, fun, company...

last year we realised we got too close too quickly.. we thought we knew each other well, liked one another's company, etc, when actually how much did we know and accept one another? how many untold secrets were between the 4 of us? we thought we were great friends. but i guess true friendship takes time to cultivate. it takes more than playing games and laughing at each other. its about listening, understanding, not assuming..

i still love you guys, but i guess its different now.. but i'll still hold on esp if at least one more cares. but i hope its not because of "since she lidat, i think i shd lidat also". hope its mutual.

i guess.. it doesnt happen overnight. or in non-literary, practical context, true friendship and love just doesnt happen over 2weeks.

and i'll take this lesson learnt into this new friendship that God has given us. and like what jl said, with God as the focus.. things will be better.

no, things will turn out in best case scenario (:

psalm 42:11
Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Savior and my God.

Oh what I would do to have
The kind of faith it takes to climb out of this boat I'm in
On to the crashing waves
To step out of my comfort zone
Into the realm of the unknown where Jesus is
And He's holding out His hand

But the waves are calling out my name and they laugh at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The waves they keep on telling me
Time and time again, "Boy, You'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"


chorus
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe
The Voice of Truth


Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand

But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again, "Boy, You'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"


chorus
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe
The Voice of Truth


But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them lookin' down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me


chorus
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me(calling out to me)
I will choose to listen and believe(I will choose to listen and believe)
I will choose to listen and believe

The Voice of Truth

I will listen and believe
I will listen and believe

The Voice of Truth

I will listen and believe

Cause Jesus you are the Voice of Truth

And I will listen to you
you are



so amazing. voice of truth: i can be like peter and "walk on water", i can be like david and beat a giant with a sling and a stone.
therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. thanks Abba. =)

ohkayy

this week spent slacking a lot a lot. eating a lot, sleeping a lot.

its time to buck up denise..

okay, everybody pls phone me up to date me out for a mugging session! please please. love you people. haaa.

not like anyone reads this anyway.

okay, i really promise i'll spend this week onwards studying. HELP ME LORD. i will make this decision. okay. i will.

bye!