Postmodernism
The postmodernist is convinced that nothing can explain reality. The postmodernist is not even convinced anything real objectively exists.

To the postmodernist, "truth" is whatever point of view the individual prefers. Moreover, the postmodernist thinks that what is "true" for one person might not be true for another. Truth itself simply doesn’t matter much to a postmodernist; all that really matters is the dialogue between ideas. And every idea deserves equal respect.


see this interesting dialogue now..
"On another occasion, a man came to me after a seminar and said, ‘Actually, I’m an atheist. Because I don’t believe in God, I don’t believe in absolutes, so I recognize that I can’t even be sure of reality.’ I responded, ‘Then how do you know you’re really here making this statement?’ ‘Good point,’ he replied. ‘What point?’ I asked. The man looked at me, smiled, and said, ‘Maybe I should go home.’ I stated, ‘Maybe it won’t be there.’ ‘Good point,’ the man said. ‘What point?’ I replied.

This man certainly got the message. If there is no God, ultimately, philosophically, how can one talk about reality? How can one even rationally believe that there is such a thing as truth, let alone decide what it is?"

for more,
http://answersingenesis.org/creation/v22/i1/creation.asp

i'll try learning a little bit each day. :)

at bel's house now! just did some tuna sandwiches haha for tmr's picnic after just play it. o God let there b good turnout tmr please! and that everyone will have fun!

today was jinwei's daughter, li-ann's birthday. reached jinwei's place at about 540, bel and i had a good time catching up with him and serene and going gaga over li-ann! was really blessed with what jinwei and serene shared, and just looking at their family really gave me hope and love and.. really feel so blessed after that.

yupp was sharing w bel just now and i guess theres so much that has happened this past 1/2 year, i shd really sit down and write it alllll out. all the lessons learnt, the things done wrongly, the things to look forward to. the attitudes i should have.

and yes, i think i foresee that God's gonna stretch me in the area of loving Him with all my mind.. and in defending my faith intellectually. jinwei mentioned this too.. that when we go university, pple will start asking questions about my faith. how i shouldn't take the facts and truths that are central to my life for granted.

feel inadequate. God help me!

this week wasn't really nice.

i felt..

jealousy
anger
frustration
impatience
unfairness
discouraged
puzzled (at a loss?)
exhaustion
guilt

but then again, the above-mentioned emotions were in a sense all my fault. not blaming it on circumstances or people.

but yupp as the song goes.. i will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth.

i will try to rejoice. i will repent. i will believe in forgiveness.

BUT!! there were highlights as well i guess. its not all THAT bad. founders day item was a success! really enjoyed it. i finished my functions tutorial. wow. ymgap was a good time. i'm well-fed. i have a nice roof over my head. i have a re-tuned guitar. i have a God who is patient and faithful.

hehe, not bad lah hor. balanced essay. i think mr kan will not fail this post.

how i wish i can always keep my feelings under control. sometimes its not that simple eh. to feel the way i want to.. towards people, towards circumstances. ahaha.

just deal with it and move on.

food for thought? God is more than a feeling or a thought. He's not only the feeling of peace and joy during worship or after a satisfying conversation. God is more than the character we have "written out" in our minds from studying the bible. its more than expecting Him to do this or that according to the bible. don't get me wrong, all these are not false..

its not enough for me. i'm so frustrated.. yes its cool to know God is a fortress, God is a shelter, He loves and shows grace. its good to feel secure. but more than anything i want to know God as a best friend. a living Person. not only the blessed assurance of salvation i have in thought, but in reality.

its one thing to know that a friend is there for you, and another thing to have that friend beside you talking to you.

i guess thats what has been bothering me and making me feel "depressed". the uneasiness of knowing that something is missing.

i want to find You again.

a conversation we had on googlechat. yupp i think we're all out to suan and embarrass jason. yes wanlin hg? *winks ;)

btw, this is abt jason's infatuation with sauces. in case you all didn't know, he likes to dab his utensils in various kinds of sauces and lick them off for dessert. its sth like his after-meal ritual.

me:
ahhh
*SCREAM
no chilli for you!
i will give the whole TUB to hg!!!
*snarls terribly
lack of vocab, sorry
haha

Jason:
haha..
okok
i REPENT
please feed me chilli
='(((


Jason:
hmm... but i've been more embarassed then this
=PP i can deal with it you know =(

me: why sad face?

Jason:
haha.. it's the hurt tt comes when you do this to me
*sniff
OMG
i'm soooo out of character now
i'll shut up and sulk in my corner

haha sheesh. this is what happens when a pig-lunatic and a normal girl talks at 1230am. sorry, i'm abit sleepy la. and releasing steam. and i can't help it that the other party is like, crazy! haha=D

fatjay tagged me so i'm supposed to do this! and yes if you got tagged.. follow instructions k! =p and tht includes you CARMEN although you have no tagboard. lolx.


INSTRUCTIONS:

1. Do the following without complaining.
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you've completed yours.
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say that he/she has been tagged.
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.


FAVOURITES:
color: white, brown, certain shades of green.. (not dustbin green!) the blue of wanlin's laptop.
food: frankel avenue's noodles, most things w chilli/chillipadi inside, coffee, and i hv occasional cravings for carbos! ahaha.
song: damien rice's songs. haha. none in particular.. those not grating on the nerves.
movie: too many! hahaa.
sport: what else.. NETBALL! *gaspgaspscream! netball rox! haha
day of the week: i think saturday. haha. cos no school. and i used to hv time to myself on sat nights.
season: i think i like summer. im qt happy w sg's weather =p
ice-cream: hmm. wild strawberry. macademia nut. semisweetchoc.


CURRENT:
mood: erm.. a little guilty becos im procrastinating and not doing my math tutorial.
taste: none
clothes: shorts + HUGE tee. my pyjamas! =D
desktop: my brother's.. messy! *wrinkle nose.
toe nail color: nude. haha
time: eleven thirty four pm
surroundings: messy.. cramped.. =/
annoyance: MATH TUTORIAL. maybe econs too.
thoughts: sigh i sound so loser. math tutorial. prayer journal. shaun chook (msn)


FIRSTS:
best friend: i was thinking.. probably my dad.. or my maid.. ahaha.
crush: no idea man. first really serious crush in pri5! haha!
movie: =/ dunno!
lie: "no i never do this or that"
music: i dunno. hahahahaa how i know!


LASTS:
cigarette: none, dont smoke
drink: water frm my SIGGED bottle! hoho
ride: bus13 from vjc to home
crush: im not broadcasting
movie: CARS!! pitstop? haha!
phone call: to laura asking if she's coming for training
CD: borrowed damien rice o from abby


HAVE YOU EVER:
dated one of your best friends: hm we were gd friends.. and yes i guess accordg to jason we grp date all the time! haha
broken the law: yup.
been arrested: nope
skinny-dipped: NO! yuck?
been on tv: no don't think so. only like, incidentally or sth
kissed someone you don't know: of course not.. haha


THINGS:
4 things you did today: PLAYED NETBALL! smsed. slept. listened to lecture *BEAMS*
3 things you can hear right now: the gentle hum of the PC, my mom talkg on the phone, the fan.
5 people to do this: carmen, haoguang, ABBY!!, samting?, wilson?. haha.

was reading jason's post on the 4 of us, so hilarious! haha. pls go read his blog ok! about those people who mean so much to me. hehe.

anyway yes, to the 3 of you, thanks for being that extra shot of caffeine in my life. (taking a leaf out of wanlin's fascinating vocabulary, like "inject into my thoughts.." i'm still waiting for my fantasy novel!) you all make my day. and in some ways help me live thru my days in vjc. you all taught me to love and be loved! plus, the accountability and prayer journals, in a sense, help keep me close to God. yupp i really thank God for you pple. love you all very much okay!! =)

i was reading abt love... yes i know its such a tired and too-oft-discussed topic, but i just have to share this!

to paraphrase Dr. Chapman,
[ falling in love (limerance, the emotional feeling of "love") is not love, because its not an act of the will or a conscious choice. it is not real love because it is effortless; it requires little discipline or conscious effort on our part. the "in-love experience" does not focus on our growth / other person's growth. ]

there's much more to love than the emotional aspect of it.

love is patient
love is kind
and is not jealous;
love does not brag
and is not arrogant,
does not act unbecomingly;
it does not seek its own,
is not provoked,
does not take into account a wrong suffered,
does not rejoice in unrighteousness,
but rejoices with the truth;
bears all things,
believes all things,
hopes all things,
endures all things.
Love never fails.

love is a choice. though probably right now quite a few of the friendships or kinships i have are more like the "in-love" kinda thing more than true love, i will with God's perspective make the decision and take the effort to love when the time comes.. when the ugliness of human nature comes out. worse still, the bad-mouthing or critical words..

why? because if God deems you worthy to be loved, shdn't i do the same thing?

hmm. God's word provides wisdom aplenty. its a joy.. abba help me not take it for granted.

hello! im at marina macs now. haha. blogging on hg's laptop!

hm jason told me to blog abt the mugging sessions we all had. haha. i think pictures would be the best explanation so go to haoguang's blog for more info!

basically we've been hanging out at ms and suntec and mugging. coffee club, starbucks, macs.. yah. actually i don't really rmb all of what's been happening. it sort of all melts into a nice memory of "hanging out together". hehe. got to spend lots of time w wl and talk to her! =)

so this week it was mid-years for me. im gonna fail a few papers.. hopefully can continue playing netball. the fantastic thing was tht 4 of us hv been praying for each other, smsing each other/calling each other.. haha thk God for support, yes? =)

well not really in a very reflective mood now. but yupp learnt a lot of stuff this week too. esp. parable of the talents. time to stand up for whats right!

ok i shall blog abt wanlin's friend, jovian. he's this sec4 sas guy who's prob gonna dsa into sajc bball next year. from what i hear, he positively has a crush on her! altho she hasn't come to that conclusion yet. haha. oh, he's 1.8m, fair, and has a questionable complexion. no slitty eyes though. and he keeps smsing her. he sounds like a okay guy la, nice and all. im not saying he's some horrible stalker. but yes.. obviously wanlin doesn't like him but he's quite oblivious to that fact. hmm. hahaha. okay. i hv nth much to say anymore but hopefully he'll stop smsing her so frequently!! or else can ask jl and hg to protect her! haha.

yuppyupp.